POEM: “I Am Ready! (Not-Rot)” — I am ready to live it on the cusp of a new time! / For realizing I’ve chosen another city in which to FEEL ALIVE!

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I Am Ready! (Not-Rot)

I am ready for adventure on the cusp of a new year!
For double-yoga duties on the first day!
— setting the standard for the remaining.
And I am ready for adventure on the cusp of a new world.
Thriving in Montreal: shopping bliss
at Jean-Talon Market for fresh salmon from New Brunswick!

I am ready to burn it!
That memory-grey lingerie on which sits your DNA.
While you’re over there on your island, forever and ever distant.
I am ready to understand it
That a break in a friendship, in any connection
Leaves us deficient, castrated for a while with dangling limbs!

I am ready to live it on the cusp of a new time!
For realizing I’ve chosen another city in which to FEEL ALIVE!
I am ready for scary, and frustrating and what the fuck Quebec, like…?
And for reminiscing no more on past loves
While getting happy in errands and activities and challenges
And seeing what the fuck I’m made of!

I am ready for adventure on the cusp of a new year…
To search my tribe, to hunt my food, to care for villagers among me, too.
I am ready to give to friends more than I receive.
And to stretch my legs by walk, metro, or BIXI
And to not-rot in a vibrant new city….

I am not your fan.
You were never my man.
And I welcome the kisses and care of new men, bring it on!
And I will invite the right kind of attention
That dances me boldly but kindly into the not-rot.

Sylvie Hill, December 31, 2018

Painting: J Coates by JamesCoatesFineArt on Etsy